What to do…

I’ve had a lot on my mind, and at this point in my life, it’s hard to know who to turn to. For that matter, it’s always hard to know who to trust. People can do some pretty incredible things, not all of them pleasant. I thought back to this blog, and decided that I would vent here. I don’t think I’ll actually complain about anything, but it feels good to just talk. And if no one listens, that’s okay. I just want to have a way to say this.
The first thing that just went through my mind was based off of something someone told me once. “You claim to not want anyone to feel bad for you, but all you’re doing is looking for pity.” And maybe I am. To be honest, it’s comforting to know that someone feels bad for you. But I don’t think that’s what I’m doing. I think, what I’m really hoping for, is for someone to care. Someone to hear me out and really understand. Someone to tell me what I can do to make the pain go away. But what can you do?
I enjoy helping people. I really do. I like to give advice. But, to be fair, I need help myself. I need someone I can always count on. I realize it’s a tall order, but I also believe it’s a fair one.
I feel like one of those people who just sit there and complain, hoping that someone will listen and feel bad. And I guess in a way I am. But I’m not meaning to. Maybe I’ll keep writing here. Maybe I won’t. I don’t know yet. I guess anyone’s guess is as good as mine.